2009-01-31 Sat 11:38
I can hear my voice.
Everybody who is around me has made me what I am today.
Also I think of them on and off.
A few days ago, one person said to me that you have not to live alone more as past days.
When I was hearing it, I didn't know why I should be in tears .
What is good is I will have been believing somebody in the future.
and, that will be worst if I will not be able to believe anybody.
I will do effort lest it should be so. I'm going...
I'm going... sweetheart.
lest + S + should ～ : Sが～ならないように
on and off : 時々(断続的)
2009-01-30 Fri 07:46
I felt like a Japanese war era when I listened to the public speaking of Japanese Diet.
such as the Premier speech.
Why he can be such a stupid speaking only ?
Is the Japan still staying in the war ?
His how to speaking reminds us of the times of the war.
and the other situation too.
Japanese students's costume is affected from military.
even girl's sailor suit are affected from a sailor of military ship "Yamato".
Are we staying as the war era ?
Asshole. Japanese government.
How stupid their behaviors who cannot keep off from the war.
era : 時代
diet : 国会
military : 軍隊
2009-01-29 Thu 10:17
Don't keep off my blog even if you cannot understand.
I will provide you of some hints.
I'm going to speak past from myself again.
although I don't know whether I can satisfy to you or not.
I had no time enough to sleep, when I have played the music actively.
sometime in the past, it was no more than an hour.
I was so tired that I couldn't do anything. It seemed to die.
but now, as you know, nothing was my effort.
Considering what I did, I'm feeling down as long as I can. I cannot help doing it.
Every time I remember it, I feel sad.
The sad feeling comes to myself while I'm listening to own music.
so long. see you next.
keep off : 離れる
provide A of B : AにBを提供する
although～ : ～だけれども
considering～ : ～を考慮すると
cannot help ～ing : ～せざるを得ない
2009-01-28 Wed 11:11
As for myself, something reduce me as unsatisfactory.
when I'm listening to the music of my friends or so.
but, I won't play the music in spite of existence that someone's expect.
It was no comfortable for my usual living. only was myself...
I must do another things to make a living. to my life usually.
I decided almost. but, I can't say it now yet.
When you know that I will do the things.
maybe, you will be surprised. but, I'm going to do it.
I wanna do it. I will do it lest I should do mistake.
I couldn't get anything by my music, much less make a living.
There was neither the love nor success.
and so I cannot help doing that I will do it.
lest + S + should ～ : Sが～しないように
much less ～: まして～ない
neither～ nor... : ～も・・・もない
2009-01-26 Mon 11:30
I shall speak as to my friends suddenly.
a few weeks ago.
I was heard by Mr. Shishow that the one friend of mine would marry.
what a nice news !!!!!!!!!!!
I will say "Congratulations !".
I don't know whether I will be invited to his wedding.
but I'm feeling as happy as you.
sorry, my friend. If you will invite me. maybe, I won't...
Shishow, please, say hello to Mr. K.Takahashi.
"May the selfless love be with you."
As for me, I have been managing to live yet.
so long. see you next.
say hello to ~ : ～ によろしく
selfless love : 無償の愛
May ～ (文頭) : ～でありますように・・・
as to ... [as for ...] : ～に関して
2009-01-25 Sun 13:16
The coming of the cold night in winter. It reduced me to sad.
My heart as bad as dead. I don't know whether I gave up the love or not.
but it's sure that I feel so cold in my heart and body.
From detail of my heart will be not warm.
When did I feel so sad and cold from ? was it from the beginning of the winter ?
although I don't depend on season or weather.
I can't realize more worse because the day has been past.
Maybe, you don't need me.
There are lots of people who might be with you around you in the future.
Don't be afraid of your happiness without me in the future.
and, don't be afraid of they will come into in the heart of your life.
You might need to say good-bye for your future.
You needn't wait for me till I will be able to do the love you.
Needn't me for you.
Think to your heart's content.
so long. see you next.
whether ~ or not : ~ かどうか
more + 比較級 + because ~ : ~ ゆえにいっそう
be afraid of ~ : ~ (精神的に)を恐れる
in the heart of ~ : ~ の中心
2009-01-24 Sat 12:32
I decided of putting on the "ピップ エレキバン" to my skin.
because, my body was certainly tired from something or so.
To my surprise, it's very good for our body of overwork.
and it cure us of some ill. only during putting on it.
I suggest it for everyone. Won't you try it ?
What do you think that the "LOVE" in English is same as in Japanese ?
If those words of the two will be same each. I will say.
I love mother.
I love father.
I love sister.
I love 3 brothers.
I love my close friends.
I love everyone.
so long. see you next.
(to one's surprise : 驚いたことに)
(cure(除去動詞) A of B : AのB（病気）を治す)
(除去動詞 +A of B : AからBを除去する)
2009-01-23 Fri 11:10
I have been in low spirits while a few days.
now I'm right man in principle.
but, in the meantime, I'm more crazy than any other persons.
because... Listen. although it's too strange to say,
I had been thinking that dying was less difficult than any other things.
I thought that I would die in 5 years or 10 years at least.
but now, why... I don't wanna die. so I'm afraid of the time of my death.
at least, I wanna live only while "I'm on with you" even in this stupid world.
Yes, I will call this world stupid. and human states are most of silly.
in even this world likely so, I wanna do the love with you, sweetheart.
I can't write by Japanese words in this blog.
because these contents are too crazy to understand.
It's more strange than crazy.
so long. see you next.
I miss you.
(low spirits ⇒ 意気消沈)
(in principle ⇒ おおむね)
(less + [...(原級)] + than A ⇒ Aほど[...]ではない)
2009-01-22 Thu 14:24
We are more intelligent than other life on the earth.
but, nobody can to love enough and love hand in hand.
As the time goes on more, we will have going on bad more.
Why we keep lending someone to sad matter ?
Can we stop it ? maybe, we can't. It's too late.
The human is a surprising stupid life. We must know it in one's self. Don't you know yet ?
Don't worry. at least, the people more than half on the earth aren't realizing it yet.
and they would never understand it.
Remember, we are not good "a man" so well as we wish.
Nothing is perfect in our life.
You and me too.
2009-01-21 Wed 10:45
by Amuro lay.
Yes, I did the things that resemble to his speaking.
My fault would replace his situation.
Also I can never get back to hometown, can't I ? What do you think ?
You will realize if you know the fatal mistake had been done by me.
Sorry, I won't. Don't so dig the matter even though you can.
I didn't go to hometown after 2007 in summer. almost, I couldn't.
Without mention, I have not been meeting my family and native friends.
How bad I did. but I'm sorry. I'm afraid that I won't be able to going there long.
pardon me, please.
(without mention: 言うまでもなく)
2009-01-21 Wed 05:39
Living the everyday is too hard.
also, I'm thinking. To feel comfortable what is needed ?
Indeed, all of the world has being invaded from the desire of the money.
What do you think keeping it is good or happy ?
It may sure but I hate.
I hate it. but almost people on the earth are needing these contents or so.
Sometime, I wanna change the people's mind to something else.
How do you think I can do it ?
It's too dangerous and difficult, isn't it ? and it will needing a lot of the time.
It doesn't problem feeling dangerous or so. It represent my wants.
however I may have being killed.
There are persons having stupid minds about only their own profit.
we must not give in to them any way.
We ought to deny them who is speaking their own philosophy.
Their words are going on own way only.
"The philosophy must be made from each one's self".
There is no answer.
Hey, you ! understood ?
(give in: 屈する)
2009-01-16 Fri 03:53
I went to the hospital for to get vaccination against influenza.
then, the doctor said to me
"What a surprising muscle you have!"
"Your muscle will be looked like a boxer really".
I said thanks and I may agree you.
I got a CD of "Ne-Yo".
He is a Hip-Hop or R&B musician of U.S.A..
I like his music and name.
One of the my favorite song is "Because of you".
I introduce it to you by youtube.
It hasn't to explain about his music. I should explain why I like his name.
because his name stand for "Japanese Ne-yo". It can be "nothing all".
even I wanna say it. "I have not anything"
It is mean just... "watashinimo nanimo Ne-yo".
I have no heart which can trust the people.
I might have understood. My heart was invaded by worse things.
I can never believe though do effort.
(vaccinacion: 予防接種) (influenza: インフルエンザ)
2009-01-15 Thu 06:47
I had said that I should not do the love her about 5 years ago.
The reason was by myself. I said...
"I should not love her only now. because I won't be able to my own way ".
That was right. and it hasn't been changing now yet.
I have tried my own way only. to make music.
but now. I must change my mind if I will have to live more than a few years.
such as another way for live. It will be time to should do something.
I'm sorry to someone who respect me. but you don't need to feel disappointment.
I merely wanna get love. Would you understand for me? ever to get love is not sure.
I'm not ready to do the things.
also I'm going to do it among limited time. I will do well as possible.
but you have much time without me.
It is sure that you will be away from me meantime.
after a few days, it will be come my birthday.
I'm going to be alone. or may be alone...
even though someone will be with me.
at least, my heart will be alone. It same as my past days.
2009-01-14 Wed 05:39
I had not been keeping you on my mind.
Sorry, my close friend, Shishow. You have always helped me.
and present, you are helping me now too or keeping. expect? respect?
Above all, you are there. It makes me not alone. thank you...
I'm thankful for you very very very
...thank you. I'm sorry, I couldn't. I couldn't be success in my music.
I wanted to do for your hope.
nowadays of me,
I'm going somewhere. It maybe gone already.
will you tell me what I should do and where I'm going?
can you tell me why? the reason why? If you have known.
I think you had known and you know. I wanna ask you.
please, tell me how to do the love and to love somebody.
I will not get anything even if I keep going to thus stupid way.
also, what should I do?
I will be not able to do the love anymore. I'm feeling down to dying.
also I wanna meet you and tell with you about thus troubles some day.
see you again.
This is a message to my close friend, Shishow.
I miss you again.
2009-01-13 Tue 02:59
Let's study English.
How to use the "進行形"
I'm feeling some fault.(現在進行形・現在の状態)
Just my fault. I don't know how to handle such a feeling.
I don't know where I will be.
I was giving somebody trouble.(過去進行形・過去の事実)
besides, I'm giving now.(現在進行形・現在の状態)
to almost my family. It was made from me. It's just my failure.
My family was truly helping me about my dream.(過去進行形・過去反復)
when I released the first album "Lunalian".
such as, I was doing concert in Yamagata and Tokyo.(過去進行形・過去の動作)
My sister and brother was helping me sell the CD.(過去進行形・過去の動作)
My father and mother too or more. It's so many times. I must say "thanks".
long time, I have not schedule of visit to my family.
I wanna meet them again but I will be not going.(未来進行形)
I will be not able to going.
I was alone.
I'm still alone.
I will be alone again.
It is different from "I wanna".
even though she will be.
so I'm feeling.
I will feel so.
2009-01-12 Mon 06:34
something takes me away from her.
I found stupidly... I can't see and seize the future.
I might see you will go away from me some day.
I won't be able to contain her. I'm afraid of those matter every night.
maybe, I gave up her when I wondered it.
and, I stopped loving her stupidly. I could not help putting an end of the love.
sorry, I can't but doing it actually.
There is too fatal difference. "my times" "your times".
But, she isn't any wrong. All of the matter is my wrong.
I choose only one try every time. because the time is not so many.
however, I never have being able to get more times.
and besides, I'm not musician any longer.
I don't know how I should do. I don't know whether I can get along with you or not.
It's OK you look down on me. I still must ask for the time even stupidly.
It's too same as my fail at past. I'm sure that it resemble my past mistake.
How do I keep to you. I don't know...I don't know.
When I thought so, I couldn't be the man who do love.
I will be alone... How sad...
even though she have been loving me. How sad. why?
I need your love, but I won't.
Above all. Here is prison. It's too long way til I pass away.
Why I became thus stupid man?
more or less I can't do the love.
though she does love...
even though she does love...
but now, I....
I still love her.
2009-01-10 Sat 06:10
Let's study English from my blog.
I say again, don't keep off.
How to use the
"Do you know""do you think"
You don't forget my song, do you?(肯定疑問形)
Keep my songs in your heart as my wish. How long?
How long do you think anybody keep?
My songs weren't loved from many people.
I would play more if only plenty of people loves them.
I wanna do but I could not anymore.
Can't I love her enough.
She loves me, doesn't she?(否定疑問形)
Why I can't love you more and more?
Can't you see the end of love?
I will be afraid of the end in the our future.
What do I do...
What should I do?
What do you think I must?
Do you know I love someone?
But, only I am a person who should not love anybody.
and, I am a person who should not be loved from anyone.
It's same as my songs, doesn't it?(否定疑問形)
Don't love the human who seem to going to the hell like me.
already, you know that, don't you?(否定疑問形)
Can't you tell me, even if you knew.
sorry to everyone... good bye.
you may meet again whether hell or heaven.
I miss you.
2009-01-09 Fri 04:20
Dear my close friend.
It's so mysterious?
It feels like you are staying with me.
"The respect lights" be with you at all the time as my wish.
My heart is very calm if only I touch you.
Then, I could find and realize you.
maybe, I felt thus.
I don't know whether I must become able to die or no.
and, the bottle of wine in the refrigerator is drunk by me.
I sleep while keeping thus mind stupidly.
I miss you.
2009-01-08 Thu 08:01
Here is a "Mr. hirokey's CD" that he sent me it.
on today, I found it here. Thank you my friend.
I feel like god's bless. It made me happy.
I wish that everyone get it as not late.
Mr. hirokey living in Osaka is very nice musician.
on and off, we had been playing the music together in Osaka, Yamagata, and Tokyo.
He sing a song. and I play the synthesizer.
There is the words of song that I wrote.
That song is "Mr. Windy Road".
Don't miss it.
You said "why don't you believe me".
It is maybe different the matter.
Why is depending on my sad mind.
It's too cold.
I miss you.
back to your love.
see you again.
2009-01-07 Wed 05:46
A day in the past.
I found myself in times of trouble.
How am I now? what is my property at all?
It doesn't mean compare to anybody's it.
I talk about me...
Without mention, maybe, I did fatal failure...
Despite, I kept on my stupid movement.
Do you mind what is just? I agree with TK about those matter.
What was the behavior that reduced us to the matter?
I don't know how to treat about this anymore.
and besides, I can't manage.
however, I have a quality talent enough with make music as you know.
but now, it's too impossible situation to dedicate to everybody.
so I'm sorry. Let's wait for coming opportunity.
I don't wanna be a musician merely.
I will establish my theory in the future.
Let it be...
When I find myself in times of trouble.
Mother merry comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
2009-01-05 Mon 07:00
I have a bad feeling about this.
feel terribly disappointment.
It feels like slave of this world system stupidly.
even grace is there.
however I wish that I make music.
for me. for you too.
on and off, I'm feeling the rhythm even now.
I almost know what need for success with the music.
that reason depends on my work.
It need what is...
such as "the money, the chance, the time, a lone,
danger, many machine, effort, popularity, setting, and more ...".
thus, I have no system.
only now, nothing. and I have to wait it.
I'm feeling all so.
Do you have it?
Why are you going?
you won't care for me in the future.
Can you wait for me?
I will not be able to catching yourself.
2009-01-04 Sun 05:42
suddenly, I got "年賀状" today.
from my family. their photos were in there.
and I thought.
How many persons I disappointed?
can I decide several problems?
I'm not successful with music in any way. anymore?
I know that I can't now.
It's time for waiting for the chance.
but, you might be not able to understand.
maybe, you can not help going away meantime.
however I never neglect every expectations.
now is not the time for it.
wait...wait for the chance and luck. I want you to know.
surely, the chance will truly come again.
I'm not enough ready to start yet.
I won't get anything if I already started.
also, I'm feeling that I can get to the future of the day.
but, now I'm...
I can't something for you who does love me.
It's gonna take times to ready for the departure.
I saw the people separated from the people each other.
over and over. we can't help. It's human's destiny.
the moon, god, goddess please bless me...
When I was younger, so much younger than today.
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
help me if you can.
I'm feeling down.
2009-01-02 Fri 17:00
Happy new year everyone.
What's kind of your wish?
Yes, me too. went to "hatsumoude" with my pleasure.
to "shouin-jinja" in Setagaya with regard of "吉田松陰".
He has been sleeping at there.
There was crowded with many people.
It took about 50 minute to do the things we did "参拝".
I bought "Omamori". it is said that "志".
next, we went home and watched the "star wars".
on the way it. My close friend.
Mr. Shishow called me at the first time of new year.
Thanks my friend. I truly felt pleasure.
I miss you my friend.
I was not to call on you any longer long time.
but, I remember enjoying new year with you a few years ago.
I wanna meet you again as not so far.
and my family too. but, I can't.
This world is not dramatic.
"happening in platform"
"myself in front of the mirror"
"face of passengers"
I feel my heart sadly year by year.
May the force be with you.
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